Wanting control so I can ‘know’ what is going on is a constant struggle for me, and maybe you struggle with this too. Part of me knows that I need to surrender to the Lord and fully give Him control, but I still struggle with letting go. “Let go and let God” is very true, and something we must do if we fully surrender our lives to His Lordship, but it is far easier said than done!
However, it is not truly faith if we keep control for ourselves. If I can control the situation, if I can somehow make it work myself, I am not operating in faith! It is only truly faith if I continue moving ahead, knowing that if God doesn’t do it, if He doesn’t step in and make it work, I will fall flat on my face. For those of us that struggle with ‘performance’ issues, that is extremely hard to do!
Another side of that is being sure we aren’t trying to move forward in something that is ‘good’, but not necessarily of God. We must wait – hard as that is – and only move forward if we are confident that it is God driving our ‘good’ decisions and actions, not our own thoughts and ideas alone. God has NEVER lost, and He never will. He has fitted us, His children, for victory, because He lives in us. He lives in me, and therefore when I am following His plan, I cannot fail, because I am not living my life but His, in me.
And if I am following His plan, why on earth would I think I could control it and make it work out? Trying to do God’s work in our own strength alone is a recipe for disaster! If it is His work, we need to let Him be in charge, and let Him provide the strength and power with which it is accomplished. Faith steps in when we step aside and say, “Lord, this isn’t my work, it is Yours, and I am incapable of making it work by myself.”
Lord, help me to keep this knowledge always before me, so that I will stop trying to control things myself, and allow You to do what You will in and through me. It is not my strength or power or wisdom that will bring success, but Yours, as I allow You to live in and through me. Forgive me for continuing to try see the end from the beginning and ‘make it work’ out the way I think it should. ONLY You can do that. In Jesus’ name, Amen.