This is another one from a time when I was feeling discouraged and very frustrated and aggravated at myself and my life. I was feeling that I was making no progress and was never going to become who I wanted to be and who I felt God had created me to be. When I was doing the two-way prayer, and seeking to hear Abba speak, this is what I got:
“My child, I ache for you! You are so full of hurt and anxiety. that is NOT what I want for you! You are my beloved daughter, my princess, my bride. Once you hear it often enough, maybe you will be able to believe it. I have a plan and a purpose for you and it is a glorious one. You need to let go and trust me. Surrender beloved. Stop trying to see and understand everything; just relax and let it happen. I want to heal your heart. There are wounds and dark places you don’t even realize are there. You haven’t allowed yourself to even see them, much less acknowledge their existence. I know you to the depths of your soul and I LOVE YOU. Even in those dark and hurting places, I am with you to bind up the wounds and bring cleansing and healing with my love. You are never alone – you don’t have to deal with or change or correct those hurts by yourself. Don’t be surprised that you feel incapable of touching them by yourself – you don’t have to. I will take care of it by my Spirit. Open the door. Let me in. There is NOTHING that is too hard for me to deal with and redeem. You know this. Now let me show you.”
Although this was something Abba was saying to me at a particular time and season, I believe He is saying this to others as well. I know I am not the only one who goes through times of discouragement and despair. He knows us to the deepest depths and knows how hard it sometimes is for us to accept what He offers, but He offers it still. Let these words that Abba spoke to me, minister to you as well. He loves you deeply, and He CAN deal with whatever it is that is dragging you down into those depths of despair. Let Him bring his forgiveness, love, and grace into your hurting places and bring redemption. He longs to do it!