Reading this title you might say, “Duh – that’s not news”, but read on, because what I’m writing about today may not be what you expect from that title. or maybe you are just smarter than I, and it is exactly what you’d expect. Whatever. It just seemed like this was something I should share, so hopefully it speaks to some of you out there, even if, to others, it seems like something we should already know.
I have experienced a lot of struggle between wanting to walk in the prophetic gift I believe I have been given (it has been spoken over me by a number of individuals over a number of years) and my fear that I don’t hear clearly enough to be ‘qualified’ to share what I believe God has shown me. I don’t pretend to be an authoritative expert, but even so, I worry that my mistakes will cause someone to not hear accurately what the Lord wants them to hear. I expect some might view this as having a serious case of conceit – don’t I think God is big enough to fix any mistake I make? Somehow, don’t ask me how, I can agree with that statement (and not feel conceited) yet still struggle with this fear.
Yet again, I am going to share one of my 2 way prayer journal entries, because I believe God has given me some insight into how he sees this.
*Child, you are over analyzing again. It doesn’t really matter how it seems to you. When I am using you as My voice, it isn’t about you or how you present it; it’s about the way My Spirit moves through you to touch another. Never mind what it seems like to you – when someone receives a touch or a word from Me through you, they will know and their spirit will respond as My Spirit within them prompts and reveals what they need. It isn’t about you. Forget about trying to understand or evaluate your ‘performance’. It isn’t terribly relevant. What IS relevant is that they receive what I am giving them through you – and you have absolutely no responsibility for that! It is between Me and them – you are simply a channel for the transmission and working of My Spirit. Your only responsibility is to be open and allow My Spirit free rein in and through you.
Remember, you are dead, so it is Me in you that is speaking and working. In one sense, you completely disengage your rational, analytical, intellectual processes and allow My Spirit to engage your heart, your empathy, your compassion, and work in and through you to touch another. Allow the words, the concepts to flow freely through your voice and being, and their spirit will respond. I have prepared the ground, I provide the seed, and I provide the harvest. You are only the arm that scatters it!
Stop trying to wrap your mind or identity around ‘getting it right’. What is ‘right’ or ‘accurate’ or ‘on target’ about operating in the prophetic is completely independent of your understanding or not understanding or ‘getting it right’. It is all ME! Behind you, in and through you, and in the other person or persons you are speaking to or engaging with. People can generally hear and respond more easily and readily to another person they can see and hear and touch. That is what you are, the physical vehicle through which My Spirit can speak and move so that others can more easily see, hear, and respond. I am the life, the words, the source, the motive power that brings forth the revelation and understanding. Stop trying to get your mind around how it works – just relax and let it flow…If you are in Me, it is I that am at work within and through you. YOU don’t have to understand or direct or control or anticipate any of the things you feel inadequate about because it isn’t you at all! In your weakness I am strong. In your inadequacy I am more than enough to get done what I intend to accomplish. Never doubt it and do not fear. I am all you need.