I have struggled with perfectionism or performance orientation a lot in my life. One of the facets of that is feeling like I always have to get things “right” or the results – which I fear will be bad if I’m wrong – will all be my fault. It boils down to the idea that if things go wrong, it is all my fault, but if it goes right, I’ve done my job so God gets the glory.
Good results are God’s success and bad results are my failure. That’s illogical. If success is up to God, then so is failure, or if failure is my fault, then success is my triumph. The second is obviously not true, it’s God not me, so I can’t take blame for the failure either. The truth is somewhere in between, I think.
My job is to present the truth, give the love and support, to do my best. The results are God’s job. Failures are neither the complete responsibility of either me or God, but the choice of the person or persons at the other end of the situation. If I’ve done and said what God led me to, to the best of my ability, I have succeeded. My BEST, not perfection.
God certainly knows I’m not perfect and He knows my heart, so He knows when I am doing the best I know how or understand to do. If I stay humble and keep pointing to God as the source of truth and power, not myself, then even my mistakes will be used by Him to show His truth and power.
Thank You, Lord that results are NOT my responsibility. Help me to trust that You will take my efforts and bring about the results You desire and intend from them, whether I do it “right” or not.
Trusting in His goodness and sovereignty,