I have long loved the phrase “God doesn’t call the equipped, He equips the called.” I do really believe that – if He is leading the steps/path, He will provide what is needed to accomplish the task, whatever it may be. Unfortunately, I’m a lot better at talking the talk than walking the walk in this regard. I tend to take a more analytical, step-by-step approach to things, and this often causes me trouble in my spiritual walk. If I “don’t know how” to do something, or can’t see (“don’t know”) how something is going to work or happen, I have a really hard time moving in that direction, even if I feel it is the Holy Spirit leading me there.
I really need help remembering that it isn’t “I” that will be doing whatever it is – as a believer, indwelt by the Holy Spirit, it is Christ in me that will be doing whatever it is God is leading me to do. “I don’t know how” isn’t a valid excuse, because He DOES know, and it is He that will be doing it! I need to take the “‘I’ will do/am doing” out of the equation and step aside and let Jesus living in me do whatever it is. If I do, it has a lot better chance of being accomplished than if “I” attempt to do it, even if ‘it’ is something I believe I know how to do (read will be accomplished, or accomplished better)!
Surrendering that control is a real challenge for me, and for a lot of people, I know. It seems like I do it over and over again. I get to the place of dying to self and relinquishing control at a service or seminar or conference when I’ve been steeped in the Word and the spiritual pull of the occasion, but then later I find myself once again using the “I don’t know how” excuse. Hopefully, each time I do so, I surrender more and more, and someday it won’t be so much of a struggle.
Father God, help me to surrender more and more fully to Your Lordship and control. Help me to remember that, if I am fully surrendered to You, “I” am dead, and Jesus is living in and through me. Therefore, I never need to fear or doubt that “I don’t know how” to say or do something, because He knows how to do whatever it is, because You know how! Thank you, Abba. Amen.
In His life, I wish you life,
Kathy
